today is the worst day in the world. i hate valentine's day. ugh!
i don't know what's going on in my head anymore. everything's all tipsy it seems. and no, im not drunk. just...something. i dont know. sometimes i feel like i dont know who i am anymore. but i dont know. i hate not knowing anything! and dammit, i hate being alone, its one of the things im scared of the most. that and bugs and heights.
i graduate in approx. 3 months. how scary is that? and then ill be spending the next 4-5 years in north dakota. even less mini hills. meep. but at least it'll be better than high school. or so im hoping.
i so need to get out of the house right now. im going crazy. but there's nowhere to go which pretty much sucks. and like none of my friends are home, because they actually have lives. damn, i hate being sad. this seriously needs to stop.
eh, at least i have a billy idol cd. that helps. lol!