or in my case, the lack of a job, which is eating my brain

Man, I can’t believe that I haven’t written for so long!! Aaa!!! So my computer is being weird and like correcting all of my like mistakes for me. Like capitalizing everything. Oy. And the computer won’t let me see what im typing on blogdrive, which is really quite silly. Anyways…..updates! im learning how to play sweet child o’ mine on the guitar, which kicks like major ass, seeing as though I already have the intro memorized for guitar part 1. its summertime. And I got my report card, I got a fucking d in advisor!!! My project was not late, it was done and linda even saw it. She just didn’t have time to look at the paper but gave me full points for the art. She said “sorry I don’t have time to read the paper but ill give you full points for the art part” but the paper was there, in full.  Erica says that the paper part was late until the 4^th of june. No, it was done by the extension she gave me. I just couldn’t get it graded  because by the extension, the teachers for the most part were gone on their trips. Including Erica. And she is so rude! She was all if you worked so hard on it during advisor, why was it late. Because ya’ll weren’t back until the last day of school, except for plum, whom I forgot about getting it graded. Yes, that part was my fault, but the god damn thing was done. And you’re just giving me a sucky grade because you have always disliked me and play favorites.  Ever since I came into your advisor you’ve played favorites. You adore abby. Yes shes smart, but to me she’s a snotty bitch for no apparent reason. I may not be as smart as youd like me to be or as tortured as is acceptable for her, but dammit, I worked my ass off, went well over the 2000 words I had to write, and dammit im a good person. Ugh!

            Another little thing that’s gone on is me losing a best friend. Matt. So apparently he likes me and just because I don’t like him back (it freaks me out and I think it’s gross because ive always thought of him and  mike like brothers) he says I should just forget about him. And hes being a real jerk. I don’t get it. I cant help it that I sont think of him like that, I don’t. in fact, I like another guy, and matt’s known it for quite a while, cause I tell him just about everything. So this really sucks and I don’t understand it one bit.

            And I still have no job, so I get to work my ass off at home. Yay….or not. grrrrrr……………………………

-zhanna