grrrr so my dress that i ordered for the proms might not get here in time, which totally sucks ass. but im hoping!!! *crosses fingers*. its beautiful and black and perfect!! yeah. so i got my friend tim to possibly take me, or possibly roy. if they have that day free. cause i really dont want to go alone, ya know?. i had prom kind of all set up in my mind to be perfect, fairy-tale ish. yeah that died, the whole knight in shining armor. maybe it might happen one day. but i think i might give up on relationships and romance for the rest of my life. at least i still have a really good guys friend out of all that, but i dont know if i can take being hurt again. yeah i know, im a wimp. i thought that was it though. and im sick of people saying forget him, hes a jerk, cause hes still a rockin friend.....just busy.....but yeah. ill get through this. " and one day i wont have to remember how to breathe in and out every morning"-sleepless in seattle.

yeah, yall can yell freak now.anyways. i can count on my guy friends. silas is probably taking me to the bhs prom. yay! i love all my guys. yall rock.

so yeah. recap on events- nearly got kicked out of my house. grades are straight a's with only one b+. saw knockaround guys, and of course my fave character got killed off. wonder who? *cough* seth green*cough* , rented return to me, cried a lot, talked to laura who is in town, and currently am trying to convince matvei to visit here for i-day. ummmm yeah. i have to go get ready for sleep. or the attempt to sleep, lol nitenite

love, hugs, flowers, and such

zhannichka