i was right im back to normal. and i have no life. with the exception of the bso concert which was really awesome. yay for russians! ....yeah. but i was gonna go over to matts afterward and hang with him and joseph (his kid who's really fucking cute and i need to influence him with ani and nirvana soon), but he was in a bad mood so i couldnt. and everyone else has a freakin life. i called everyone almost on my cell phone book, with the exception of college people, my parents, and jessie j who is busy i knew and craig cause hes always busy and probably wouldnt want to hang anyway. i know its a bit weird for me to see him, and hes the one who dumped me so im betting its weird for him too. anyways, no one else has the lack of life problem that i always have. i wonder if that should tell me something. man i just want to move away. i have nothing going for me here, except getting kicked in the head by a guy whom i thought was my friend and having my heart smashed by everyone i care about. in multiple ways. nothing i do means anything. i dont know why i try. ive been wondering that for so many years too. i dont see the point of me not giving up. i dont make a difference to anyone. i dont have anyone who i can truely count on. so whats the point?