so, on with my day.....the jist. it was boring, it sucked, there were a few good parts, but it got so boring and i got so up and down hyper and sad because i was tired. though the tiredness was probably on account of getting up at 6 ish am, going to the ortho, forgetting my retainers, driving home to meet kate , WHO HAD NOT LEFT, going off the road in our driveway because i was speeding, and then on the way from our house to the blacktop, i nearly went off the road a few times, and going into the ditch would have rolled my car, and most likely killed me, if not severly injure me. so, fun in the sun. yes indeedy.... . then i could not get back to sleep. its horrible when that happens, ya know? so i just kinda sat there in my room all day wanted to jump out of a tall building, other times wanted to fly high in the sky. grow real wings. just a happy feeling. i dunno. i felt so alone today, like i was stuch that way for the rest of my life and that nothing is ever going to change, and i was in hell. but i also remembered that im not alone anymore. im pretty sure anywayzers. sometimes it seems so wonderful that i convice myself that its going to end, just because im like that and i dunno. because my mind is warped. im screwed up. but yeah. there are just so many things that come into my teensy little brain.....anyways, response to the comments, alias craig o craigness. heeheehee.

damn right the craig is a smarty-pants. or you are magical as well, for i do not see how it is possible that i am magical, or even a slightly magical creature. and yay, you pay attention to the fact that i love irish stuff! you rock, so so much. heeheehee! yay for punctuation as well!!!!.....yeah. aww, you really like em? yayy! heehee, 3am. i went to sleep at 2? perhaps? yes, with the care bear, he is lovely warm as well. when the hell did you get it? considering that i actually told you not to get me anything like over a week ago. so not fair......though im happy that you didnt listen......heehee *giggles happily*.....yeah so....... yeah. so in the toy section, all that they had was new stuff of tmnt, though i did not know that there was in fact a new turtles thing. but , ya know, apparently there is. quite odd however. i did good then? yay! i feel better. im the best presant? how do you figure? im nothing special! you’re the magical one, according to the aforementioned statement, you are the smart/genius one, therefore magical. see, there’s some logic...or at least there’s something that my mind perceives as something that slightly resembles logic. so yeah, thats at least a little....itsy-bitsy.....bit. im not going to propose to silas, and that was only a joke man.....but doctor dre? oy vey. lol. im just kidding. anywayzers, i dont intend to propose to anyone anytime soon, if ever. i watch too many chick flicks. but i dont love silas, i dont even like him. i love you and thats it. so there! *sticks tongue out*. and yes, by the way, i can damn your college applications to hell. remember, im an angel!! heehee, innocent too. and i like the care bear it rocks!! heehee green hair, now it reminds me of you when i see it. heehee.

so in a closing thingie, im still a bit happy. o! we opened presants a day early because we’re driving down tomorrow as ive stated. ummmm.....i actually got something kick ass. .....a videocamera!!!!!!!!!! course i dont know how to work it yet, but its all good in the end. ill learn....or get someone to work it for me, lol. i got empire records, which i just finished watching, a hairdryer...yay. 1st season of buffy. anyone want to watch stuff sometime?? and.....thats it. cassettes for the cam. thats it. meh. it was pretty good, but my rents were grumpy because they work, so it was dangerous, and it went downhill, but im getting better. not that many really care, but yeah. and i got the most wonderfullous care bear in the universe and its irish and has green hair!!!! mister craig o craigness. heehee, awwwww wonderfully nice silly boy. i love you! heehee, i wrote that in a ....technically public, but no1 else besides the pirate lover is ever here, so its all good.

love, flowers, hugs and such!

-zhanna