ugh! dammit. as soon as i sent the new entry i put in, blogdrive had like some service problem or something, i guess, so the entire thing was lost. grrrrr!!!! lots of grr!! multitudes of grrrr!!!! ack.

so, as i was saying before, more free time is always good. lol ;) so is tinsel. though evil too, i suppose. i have a tinsel halo right now. being odd can be so much fun.

yay, im happy. even though im cold and in excessive amounts of pain.....owwwwww......back...... yeah. today it got to the point when my head got all spinny. not good. oh! but i found a video of james marsters singing a cover of nirvana's coma as you are. ROCK ON!!!!! yayayayyers

i think im losing one of my best friends. matt has been such a jerk to me lately, and i have no idea why. im so confused, and it hurts. when one is a best friend, and vice-versa, ya kinda expect them to tell ya things and to actually be nice and pretend like they care about you. he keeps brushing me off for some weird reason that i have no idea what it is! sometimes i wish i could just dissappear. i think sometimes he might be happier that way. he could go be totally wrapped up in his freshman followers and never think of me again. but i love matt, hes my big bro. mike too. but mike, though we fight, hes never acted like this. i miss my matt. hes one of the few people i thought cared. or at least ....something. hes always so sad too, and i want to make him feel better, but i dont know how. i feel so lost and helpless. but hes one of the most important people in the world to me, and i just wish i could do something, anything. ;....(

well, i was a bit happy. theres a teensey bit left. i think tinsel is magical. damn . so anywayzers. life is strange. i am so driving tomorrow!!! anyone want to do anything tomorrow after school/nite? it might be my last day of driving, and i want to stop thinking about it. eep!!!!! so, im gonna do more us history. love and flowers!

-zhannichka