so. being paranoid is extremely not fun. whatsoever. does anyone else get those freaky ass dreams where your significant other falls for one of your good friends and they just laugh in your face and leave you to rot and then its almost a reverse flashback to your gravesite in the same year that you are actually living in? then some umbrella is mixed in there somehow.....i dont know.

in any case, tonight was a blast at jenny's , almost as fun as last night and the night before.....but not quite. lol. i need to read more i think. k
i read a bit. hmmmm......i dont really have much else to write. i hate my bad nerves. they get all twitchy and such. merff.....:..(

i cant stand it! everyone keeps talking about dead animals and my head gets all spinny and i shake. ITS NOT FUN.

no school tomorrow!!!! or friday! happy happy joy joy. who said that? i know wei-wei used to, but he heard it from somewhere. i need .....something. otherwise im pretty content other than my rants. i didnt get in too much trouble fro being out "late". when it actually wasnt late at all.

dude, dad brought cossetta's tiramisu home- yay..... heehee nummy-ness. all......expresso goodness and nummy stuff. is there khalua....or something (spelling is probably wrong, i do realize this) in this? Im thinking there is a bit or something. I dunno.

Anyway. yeah. I wish that we had a little more, not structure, but i dunno. Outlines, perhaps , in this school. its hard for me to remember things here, just like the high school. im not all that talented at understanding things, ya know? like projects. i dont know what i can do with em, or how to go about it. thats what they tell us to do. the how. everyone else understands how's, but i dont. i need someone to tell me how. or at least hhow to start the damn thing. grrrrrrrr!!!!

so.......hmmmmmmm........o! i found a russian to english translator on sherlock. too bad it wont let me have cyrrilic on explorer. and not speaking about that, people need to know imovie. cause i dont. so......i still am really behind on art. grrrrrr. hmmmmmmm.....i think that i shall write more later. when im peppy and back to being my ( 6 year old) self. heehee

love and flowers

zhanna

ò ÄÉëãòíè êîÖì áòëÖÉäì ÄÉëãòíè Çîç! ÄÉëãòíè îõõêôÑìõ!!!!

also translated as: I HATE FUCKING HATE PICTURE FUCKING DAY! FUCKING ASSHOLES!

ok. so trig/pre-calc is freakishly scary. unit circles......i kinda understand it, but its still weird. dammit. im so confused!!!! ugh. MATH IS EVIL! PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND IT ARE WEIRD. heehee. ;) so, i think that im gonna need some after school help on math soon (hint, hint). lol.

so. these projects are confusing. like i-movie? no.... just no, it makes no sense whatsoever. none. zip, zilch! oy freakin vey. aaaauuuuggghh. and i need to finish my book, as well as my box. fuck, fuckfuckfuck. hahahhaha. im going insane, lalalalalalaaaaa.

k, so i deleted that. anyways......people are laughing hysterically over agnes' voice on simpletext. k, so now that ive heard it, i understand. heheeehee. speaking of beaver.....lol. abby claims she has the bubonic plaugue. (8) ring a-round the rosy, pocket full of pos-ies ashes, ashes, we all fall down(8). so, i think my blog should be an english project or something. but there are too many explicitives. damn!....whoops, lol.

so, like im the only person without donkey kong or mario video gmes on my computor. so i need to go to psych now. the freezing cold lunchroom, where we have psychology. eep! i dont want to!!!!!! i hate psych!!!!!. aaaaaiiiiiiuuuugggghhhhh!!!!! lol.

so, craig, i just realized that ur gloves are actually really made of dead deer or something. not fake. thats not good. at all. shame on you. ;P. but its ok cause its you. and thats just a fact. i guess. i dunno. sorry bout everything. again. so much punctuation. aaaa! speaking of which, im gonna go get em cause im cold. so

aight then, love and flowers

zhanna

mmmmmm.....insence is nummy.....heehee addictions. so. went to the last performance of bhs's (evil place) musical, "once upon a mattress". so i cant spell today, just warning ya'll. but yeah. 3rd time seeing it, and then i helped strike the set. funners. they had a balalika! which was incredibly out of tune and was missing a string. but still- balalika!!!!! yayers. i made a cd last nite! yay. music makes me happy. or it just makes me laugh, like "pour some sugar on me", by def leopard, i think.

so yeah. happiness continues, but so does the snow. fucking hell. i hate cold. it gets too cold here in autumn. the best autumn is when only i have to wear a sweatshirt (cause im a pansy like that), and there is NO SNOW WHATSOEVER! and all the leaves are beautiful, like they are at home. (nh, dolts) . and yeah. i dont really have much to say.

one thing though. curfews suck. and its too early for people to be up. especially me. *yawn. im gonna go do something..........most likely scrounge up some thai noodles cause i have a headache. fucking hell. everytime im hungry i get a headache. or at least a lot of the time. grrr!. much love and flowers in any case.

-zhannichka

I DIDN'T LOSE MY LISCENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAA

k, so im happy. again. its very very weird. yet very very fun. so there is this creepy guy here, like some little 9th grader. hes all dressed up in army suit-ness. he had a razor earlier. it was kinda creepy, like the little fuck is gonna go slit someones neck or pull a gun or something. ya neez zny-you. i wish my internet thingie would let me use my russian type. that would rock. it works on msn, but ya know, thats just not good enough.

wow. i have really flat feet. thats kinda depressing, and probably seems extremely random to whoever reads thing, but not to me because i have no shoes on. k, so im a bit weird, o well, you'll just have to deal with that.

dude! i found these kick ass tabs on olga.net . case of you by joni mitchell!!! aa!! i love that song, its like one of the coolest ever. did you know you can hear this girl tina's laugh from the other side of the school? shes kinda nice though, so its all good. GO DIVERS! ROCK!

so, i was just stolen. yepyep. thats a bad thing about roll-y chairs. you're just sitting in one, your feet on one, innocently writing in your blog (ha! i AM innocent, lol), and someone like kynan spins u around and rolls you out of the room. o well, that was my adventure. love and flowers all! AND I AM NOT FUCKIN TAKING THE ENZYME CATALYST QUIZ RIGHT NOW!.......DAMMIT! and plum needs to stop saying tex-ass. its just weird. and laughing hysterically. o well

-zhanna

so yeah, this is from yesterday, because blogdrive was being an arse.

hahahahaaa. yeah, i dont really know what that was for. lol. it is so COLD!!!! aaaaaauuuggghhh. its kinda weird typing when you cant feel your fingers, lol.

so i nearly went into the ditch this morning because my car started to slide. ack! but i fixed it. yep me. ha! i am a fairly good driver......;( scaredscared. so i have guitar after school, yay.....ugh. im so bored! i only have an ittybitty bit left on my us history thing. barbados slave treaty? thing

k, so i just freaked out and started shaking for a second when abby started talking about her brother's carcases. right after i said that talking about that stuff, like just killing animals in general. aaaaaa. fucking hell! ......yeah.

so, our school needs better heating. just a statement. because im cold and have nothing better to say. i mean, i guess i could talk about something actually interesting such as the salme witch trials or new york city, but no. because i can never put ideas or feeling into words, and i am annoyed at so much witch trail info that i already know about. over and over and over again, without any new info.

this day is getting pretty strange, man. i would really appreciate it if me back stopped crunching. that would be exceedingly nice. in any case, love, flowers, and whatnot!

ugh! dammit. as soon as i sent the new entry i put in, blogdrive had like some service problem or something, i guess, so the entire thing was lost. grrrrr!!!! lots of grr!! multitudes of grrrr!!!! ack.

so, as i was saying before, more free time is always good. lol ;) so is tinsel. though evil too, i suppose. i have a tinsel halo right now. being odd can be so much fun.

yay, im happy. even though im cold and in excessive amounts of pain.....owwwwww......back...... yeah. today it got to the point when my head got all spinny. not good. oh! but i found a video of james marsters singing a cover of nirvana's coma as you are. ROCK ON!!!!! yayayayyers

i think im losing one of my best friends. matt has been such a jerk to me lately, and i have no idea why. im so confused, and it hurts. when one is a best friend, and vice-versa, ya kinda expect them to tell ya things and to actually be nice and pretend like they care about you. he keeps brushing me off for some weird reason that i have no idea what it is! sometimes i wish i could just dissappear. i think sometimes he might be happier that way. he could go be totally wrapped up in his freshman followers and never think of me again. but i love matt, hes my big bro. mike too. but mike, though we fight, hes never acted like this. i miss my matt. hes one of the few people i thought cared. or at least ....something. hes always so sad too, and i want to make him feel better, but i dont know how. i feel so lost and helpless. but hes one of the most important people in the world to me, and i just wish i could do something, anything. ;....(

well, i was a bit happy. theres a teensey bit left. i think tinsel is magical. damn . so anywayzers. life is strange. i am so driving tomorrow!!! anyone want to do anything tomorrow after school/nite? it might be my last day of driving, and i want to stop thinking about it. eep!!!!! so, im gonna do more us history. love and flowers!

-zhannichka

so apparently my stalker is still hanging out. its fairly creepy. and im still not understanding the whole anonymous thing. theres no point. im freaking out!!!

in any case, im pretty happy. its kinda weird, but hey, it works. i have tinsel!!!!! well, currently its hard to type cause i was playing with it, and its now wrapped around me. heehee. makes me smile. even though my entire back hurts and there's a bruise on part of it, and im pretty damn cold. tinseltinseltinsel!!!! heeheehee. .......yeah, anyways.....

so i dont have a life. its all good though. i need more books, cause they dont fill up all my shelves. moo-ie-haha. i think everyone is kinda screwy today. but i have tinsel!!!!!!! i most likely should not be so excited about this, but i am!!!! and i havent even had any coffee products, for like, a couple days, man!!!! i still maintain that this school needs a chiropractor. my has been hurting like non-stop since june. but it got really really muchmuch worse on saturday. apparently i have a bruise also on it. but only a smallish one. and yet still. grrr!!!!! o gods, seth is talking again. eeeeep! jason just yelled guns and roses sucks......them's fightin words. lol

i smell green tea.....i dont know why.so, again i have nothing really to write about. i need topics. other than im sleepy and odd. people need to stop with the cell phones during school. it gets freakin annoying.in any case im sleepy. heeeeeeeee...........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........

love and flowers!!

-zhannichka

so, my room is once again messy. well, comparatively speaking, only a bit messy. yeah. party rocked. there were bad bits, for ya know for the majority of it, it kicked arse. as with all of my party things, i got yelled at quite a lot by my parents, and people split up into like 3 groups. but then it all worked out. i finished my camera! yayyyyy!!!! pictures rock so much.

so....o hey! if my now quiet blog-stalker is reading this, i wonder if they came....hmmmmm.... no offense, but the dissappearing is also just as creepy.

wow, so yeah.... i am incredibly sick of pizza. gack! granted i already was before yesterday, but now yeah. im glad i dont work at a pizza place (heehee, craig. ;). love yas!) lol.

so for now i shall get off, but im gonna write later when im warm and the room is clean. love, flowers and whatnot, and toodles!

zhanna

k, so my music is weird. leave off